Thread:Desantura91/@comment-34223508-20180725101837/@comment-34223508-20180821222145

THIS IS GONNA BE LONG, BEWARE (i.e I began ranting and it became longer, sorry.)

AHHH didn't see your reply.. tf when was July the 26th OH SHIT THAT'SS WHEN SCHOOL ENDED aijshfnsckdncjkm God damnit my life is outta control ;-; ugh. Well, fuck it, currently trying to talk to Old but he's away, as per usual... I just really haven't grasped that TG is over and as well as that nobody wants to stick around to speak, and that I myself amen't glued to the screen anymore, and that my friend Yokai definitely seems to be avoiding me, and I'm facing several writers blocks and aditionally overthinking shit too much but unable to tell anyone cause they'll either call some doctor, think i'm always like this and make a big deal out of something I just wanna forget or alltogther will avoid me for not being little ol' me.

Sheesh I hate girls sometimes xDDD really missing someone to talk to, don't have that much anymore... talk with school friends is so god damn fucking awkward, I hate Yokai rn, cause she seriously seems to be avoiding me and thinking she can hide it, I don't wanna talk to anyone else cause this one dude thinks he's being funny but just isn't.

Life is sooo complicated rn.... I actually just wanna draw my mangas, write my stories, stick in my dream land, and have some friends, maybe be in a happy relationship or two if that sorta thing comes along, but altogether just stick in my little world while drawing and writing, you know?

But noooo, I have to be some fuckin' object of bitch fight, as it can't be that I go to someone who treats me fine but it's totally ok to be with someone who ignores me just like that. I hate bitch fights, there's a fuckin' reason I usually am either the loner or the one in the "outsider group", so I don't get caught up in shit. Sheesh. I actually just wanna stay home from school, if it continues like this next year. Turns out, I'm actually unable to cut ties 'cause of the fear of being bullied again or being alone. Super nasty. School is shit. I think next year I'm not gonna give a damn anymore and just study so much nobody will talk to me. It's so annoying, knowing that people won't accept you if you're not who they think you are. Makes me wanna cry. I'll be sooooooo happy when this shit is finally over and I can do what I want and nobody can force me to be a part of bitchfights.

After note: Sorry for the long message. I know this is public, but what do I care,.