Talk:Ken Kaneki/@comment-27247962-20160509185123/@comment-27376148-20160509210316

i dont really see it this way since i read another traslation where it sounded like "the reason is right here" as in inside of kaneki bc the initial spark for kanekis "reason to life" is inside himself as in is kaneki himself. kanekis own desire to live which he has denied so far and had hides face bc in kanekis opinion hide was his "saviour" so hide kept him alive.

which is why its important that kaneki decides to live on despite thinking hide is dead. bc hide was the person he stated he wouldnt know if he could life on without him, he depended as much on as his heart. which always put hide in a gamechanger position instead of kaneki himself, allowing kaneki to stay passive. however now that that got taken away from him he discovers that this thing he only associated with hide so far is actually in himself too. (which is why it makes sense it was hides face he imagined)

i dont think that hes completly done with his developement already or rly found the goal he will dedicate his life to but he already saw a ray of hope sth like a spark to start a fire and from here on another journey of his characterdevelopement can begin.

additionally as in telling himself to finding it soon imo might be rather encouraging himself to accept life to hope. in a sense "you will find it when you life on" its "soon enough" maybe later in retrospective we will find out he already had sth in mind for a long time and has yet to realize it. so imo isnt meant like "its gonne be soon" (althought it might be foreshadowing from ishida but kaneki wouldnt know that xD) but "soon enough it will see all of this worth it" as in ahhh its hard to explain - but procrastinating his own live until he finds it.

sorry i hope its at least a bit understanable