Talk:Tooru Mutsuki/@comment-173.51.123.20-20150118064608

I think people really wish for Mutsuki to become a trans boy so that they ignore the nature of Tooru Mutsuki character. She was a girl from the first place and then the killing of her family happen, it was tragic, yes, but does it have any connection with she wanting to be a male? I think a lot. Mutsuki was very afraid of the past that now she can regconize Torso and man's stares looking for woman easily. That's very fact connects closely.

Tooru looks up to her father a lot so I think she wants to live as a man in order to protect herself from man, yes maybe that particular murder/raper in the past. Tooru doesn't have a problem with her gender identity but her fear of being weak. As seen during the Torso's attack, she kept chanting: "Come out, I have to be useful, Come out". It reconflicts with her true feeling, it's not that she determined to become a guy, it's that she determined to become stronger and so Mutsuki keep making mistakes. She was useless during Torso and Serpent's attack, she couldn't help much with the investigation and so being a guy is not an ideal goal.

In chapter 13 spoilers, Tooru had to dress up as a girl and faced her fears, it's true that she feel comfortable but is it Tooru's be afraid of being sexualized or be viewed as a woman? I'm not sure but I know she faced her fear and couragerously talked to Nuts, who is a dangerous ghoul. It's ironic that the only moment that she becomes useful is when she returns to being a girl. Ishida knows that she must become strong and face her true fear in order to become useful and he will push the cross dressing furthermore as hinted when she has to do more of it in the future chapter for the investigation. Nut gave her an inside job and Mutsuki herself must dresses up for more occasions.

About this sentence "I don't know the reason myself but I want to live on as a girl", I think you should not take this as a trans statement but Mutsuki's fear herself. She deluded herself into thinking that being a woman is useless and she feared for the past, but she doesn't know the exact problem with her from the beginning. Is it "whether being a woman is weak or I myself is weak"?

I can see Ishida going that route and please don't bash him on twitter because of this. It is an amazing character development, not a trans boy accepting his inner self because the fandom wants too. It is his character.