Talk:Re: Chapter 79/@comment-197.37.129.119-20160605165054/@comment-27065544-20160606102957

Anon, monsters aren't born. Not even guys like Pol Pot or Adolf Hitler started preaching their messed up ideologies when they were grade schoolers, and if you have a look at the history of most known serial killers, pretty much every single one of them suffered childhood trauma or psychological issues that shaped them into the monsters they became.

In Mutsuki's case, what triggered his psychosis was his father's abuse. It's like water filling a container with a finite amount of space. If the 'abuse' is the water, and the container is the 'self', and the self isn't allowed to vent some of the water, it will fill completely and, at some point, burst. And by 'bursting' we can make any example, including violent behaviour as it was in Mutsuki's case - extremely violent but well, details.

After that, and keep in mind this is a mere theory, she developed what looks like selective amnesia - basically as an instinctive mean to shield herself from the carnage, she forgot the event itself, which is why she later said she does not remember and left the police baffled.

This same amnesia applied over and over during Mutsuki's life - carving cats at the Academy, eating doves' corspes at the Auction, what happened with Torso, and God knows what else. Again, this is my interpretation.

There's also the matter with what appeared to be mere gender dysphoria, because I'm not so sure about that anymore. As I posted elsewhere, my belief is that Mutsuki has something similar to split personalities, but they work in reverse - the fake 'male' persona, who's merely uneasy and disgusted by her sex and by males (maybe an echo of her memories of being abused by her father?) is the one usually in control, and the 'female' persona, the true one, is the one being filtered out to give Mutsuki peace of mind.

So yes, in this case one could say that Mutsuki is guilty of hypocrisy, but it's not voluntary, or at least, not conscious - everything happens subconsciously, and one doesn't need a shrink to know that the subconscious is more or less impossible to probe. I've been under counseling for over a decade, so please believe me when I say I know a thing or two about this.