Talk:Tooru Mutsuki/Article guidelines/@comment-32222793-20170607003635/@comment-31606823-20180702223113

(say it with me non manga readers, s-p-o-i-l-e-r-s)

I’ll give you that there is quite a bit difference from translations because of our language barrier, so we probably need the jap versions but I can’t find any myself, I did however find a translation that converted in its unedited state. It says quote, “For me it’s not the fact I ‘have’ the [heart of a man]. But… I hate them. Men’s eyes.”, it’s one hell of a weird phase, hence translators changing it to make more sense, but I believe it’s a more true translation. (source: https://mangadex.org/chapter/130655/5 /  https://i.imgur.com/fbCFF3B.png ) I realize that actually a few times Mutsuki has mentioned he is a girl, but it seems more out of confusion on what it call himself. He mentions quite a few times on he feels embarrassed about telling people he was born a girl (one example: https://i.imgur.com/V0SRbJu.png ), in that same chapter mentioning how Sasaki didn’t acknowledge his birth gender not to keep himself safe but to keep Tooru from being hurt (source: https://i.imgur.com/i8CakiP.png ).

I found a better source and it indeed says “I feel like a woman”, but that phase is also double edged, implying before his mental breakdown he felt like a man. This is more my reading into it so it has little substance other than my look at it is that Mutsuki feels like this love for a man is only what a female can feel. More proof is on his attack at the coffee shop, using masc and femme versions of “I” and “me” but then after snapping to reality and knowing he can’t be with Kaneki he starts using masc or fluid terms like he has before.

I do think we are at a standstill with this point, however I would like to mention this translation which says “...Um, if it could be granted, could you comply with one self indulgent request? Even I don’t know the reason why, but since long ago I have borne tremendously unpleasant feelings considering ‘my existence as a female’.” with him messing with his shirt like he does when he is nervous, then it goes to Tooru saying he wants to be a man. I also found it in the french translation as well, I’m pretty bad at french so I don’t know the in’s and out’s of the lingo but from what I can see it’s basically the same in translation. (sources: https://i.imgur.com/SHf8taV.png / https://i.imgur.com/D2GP8ZS.png ) This highly goes to that Mutsuki stuffers from some gender dysphoria, whether it has been a thing from abuse or just how he was born is questionable, we don’t have much on his past to say, hell maybe his abuse started because he was trans and his father couldn’t accept that (what makes me say that it’s implied that neither his mother or brother suffered abuse, hence why he killed them).

While looking at translations for the french I saw the site you look at got an update for 179 and I’d like to ask no spoilers for that because I’m not too good at french and want wait until the english update. However it you find something on Tooru’s gender it’s fine to tell me, but try to black out the spoilers. Also could you try posting your images on a hosting site? It appears that I can’t access some of the links on my computer.