Thread:Dayne Dariel/@comment-34223508-20180830215656/@comment-27247962-20180910211333

I am earnestly appreciative of your answer and thrilled as well, since I love putting myself in the position of test subject. I might be quite the narcist in that sense, since I just love to read how people have psycho-analysed me.

It's definitily a mixture. Being offensive is part the emotions, my animal instincts/ passion, but partly intended as well. I'm positive I could prevent it from seeping out, but I deliberately choose not to do so (Maybe because I think that's my natural self and don't want to compromise for others sensitivity). I'm deliberately straightforward, no-nonsense, but i'm not always deliberately trying to offend someone though there have been plenty times when that was one of the aims. Whenever I feel someone is talking to me from a platform and not from equal ground, I honestly don't mind being offensive (It's a sensitivity as well as a principle of mine. Treating each other equally, so I copy how I feel i'm being treated. That's how it works in my mind). I don't really regret doing so either, since I don't mind admitting my childishness and apologize when an apology is in order (whenever the other person proves to be the better person). You might ask yourself why bother, but I guess the behaviour you've witnessed is somehow more comfortable than being the nice guy or take the time to be subtle and not offend anyone. It would require an effort of me, since I simply don't have good intuition when it comes to what is and isn't sensitive to someone, predominantly because I don't mind people being blunt, I even prefer it above the meaningless haze that I find in many comments.

Though I sometimes find myself doubting or reflecting about such a mindset. A part of me simply enjoys being like that because it's enjoyable depending on the context or situation, another part of me lashes out due to uncertainty & feelings of inferiority, another part just sighs at the childishness of it all.

If i've realized one thing about myself it's that knowing yourself doesn't equate to change. Change is still triggered by another factor. Most likely I lack the 'will' to do so. Caused by an absence of want/ambition/goals.

There simply wasn't enough of a reason for me to consider changing my behaviour. And so, I conclude my reflection about myself.

Though I have to ask you, now that you've reached this point. I've often wondered if the absence of hesitance when talking about myself or other things feels threatening or off-putting to others... How do you take it? Is it refreshing? Is it weird? Or is it a misconceived notion of mine and you think it's actually pretty normal and many people don't have problems talking about themselves so openly?