Talk:Re: Chapter 79/@comment-217.212.214.57-20160606160323/@comment-27065544-20160606175840

You are right about the character tic, but I'm not sure that Mutsuki's gender dysphoria is a complete lie.

We know he's been abused when he was a girl, he even mused to himself he was a prey to men when held captive by Torso, and before that there was that bar stakeout scene where he was noticeably uneasy, seeing male gazes as hungry, menacing leers (we recently learned those same leers were the ones his father gave him, hinting at sexual abuse even more). There's also his quote in his character page, that he finds men 'disgusting'. This again could have its roots in his father's abuse, and the fact that Mutsuki (obviously) greatly despised and hated the man, with good reason.

It's a shot in the dark, but this could also mean Mutsuki chose to live as a male in order to 'live the lie'. He was screaming to himself that 'the real me did it' in the latest chapter, the 'real me' being the woman Mutsuki, not the man. In this you are right in saying that the transgender thing could be a lie, a lie Mutsuki told himself to such an extent he ended up believing in it completely, as a result of the trauma he went through. In the end, the human mind is fragile and can't handle certain things, and massacring your whole family with an axe at twelve does count among the 'things a healthy human mind can't handle'.

This is fascinating. As a counseling patient I have great interest in psychological issues and how the human mind works, especially when we talk about aberrant behaviour, because it's so different and even alien (the 'outside') compared to what the masses (the 'box') perceive as the norm.