Thread:Dalaios/@comment-26544002-20151016000903/@comment-26940038-20151017193516

As I said, you dont know if you would cry or not. You can suppose it, but its different to experience such an enourmeous struggle yourself or to just talk about it. No matter how much time you have, you cant simply decide sth like that. Its not "regaining your memories" or "staying at the CCG", he wants to have both and tries not to make a quick decision.

He cant do anything besides obeying the orders. You are asking for the impossible. He is thinking about the ways of the CCG, but he cant do anything about it. By talking to Donato and letting ghouls like Hinami, Uta or Shuu survive he is already betraying the CCG.

Its maybe annoying for you as a reader, but its absolutely realistic. Noone would stay cool in his situation. Realising that you are a murderer, that you killed someone important (Amon) to one of your loved ones (Akira). Realising that you cant forget about it but not wanting to remember it either, because it would ruin your life and make you sad. Thats a real struggle, and I would propably be depressed all the time if I would be in his situation. Its hard to realise that everyone looks at you as a murderer, even though you cant remember anything about that.