Talk:Ken Kaneki/@comment-26967758-20151125184231/@comment-26967758-20151126184749

Thank you guys so much for your comments and support! It really made my day!

@Seinen Lover, No problem! I figured it would help others as well, although I'm aware that Kaneki has been through a lot as well, and I'm just a normal human and the amount of pain experienced can't really be compared, it's just a sense of similarity that was felt so I can't help but relate to it. I'm glad that it helped you view it in a different way, I think that's the essence of every story, to try and understand it as much as possible, but to understand something, we all need some real life experience to relate to it.

@Harostar (hugs back) thanks so much! I agree, personal experiences definitely do come into play, and I feel like using the word "bias" isn't totally justified when it comes to reasoning why things are great in a story. In a sense, this story in particular just really "clicked" with me, as if it operated in the same wavelength the earlier parts of my life was in. I hope things get better too! In fact, I'll make sure it does from now on! The people surrounding me in my life are trying to be more patient and understanding these days, so I guess good things do arise from the bad.

@Anon, You're totally right. It's hard enough to try and be myself, but without a context as to who I was prior to the memory loss, I had no clue on who I had to be for a long time. Granted, I still have missing pieces in my memory, but I'm sure they'll resurface someday. As of right now, coming to terms with myself is most important to stay true without letting my emotions get the better of me.

You are right in a sense, I think I've always had high expectations of people, expecting them to understand things the way I did right away on the get go, which isn't the case, people learn at different rates due to various factors, and while I knew this, I wasn't exactly aware I was trying to reflect my standards onto others. Now that I do, it allows me to be more mindful about the way I approach people as a whole. I'm in physical therapy at the moment, and it's benefitting me a lot! I also do write, and I draw as well, in fact, I'm currently finally leaving my hometown behind and travelling to another country in a few months after my rehabilitation finishes to study filmmaking. I think it's long overdue that I chase my dreams and stay true to myself.

@Second Anon, thanks buddy! These messages have held me together emotionally, knowing that there's people out there as well who are genuine despite the fact that we've never met each other before. Hope in humanity, restored!

@Chilopoda, thanks so much! My memories are really important to me. The things I do remember now, it almost feels like De Ja Vu in sense when I think about how my life went, almost as if I've always been running in a circle. I hope things keep looking up as well! I'll keep reminding myself to look up too, not look down at the ground and avoid eye contact when I'm talking to people.

All in all, I have to thank everyone that sent me their good thoughts, I am recovering pretty swiftly, considering how bad of a shape I was in, this is surprising me as well, how much I'm remembering! Also, in case you guys were wondering, I got my scans back today, and apparently, it seems my spine and neck bones have collapsed onto each other due to lack of muscle support, and they were affecting my nerves, which explains why I suddenly collapsed without warning. I'm in physical therapy now, and will see the chiropractor soon, hopefully, after years of suffering, I'll be able to live normally again! Thanks all once again, I hope we'll have more to discuss regarding the story soon! Stay strong and healthy people! :)