Talk:Ken Kaneki/@comment-190.80.8.7-20140925152238/@comment-190.80.8.7-20140926012949

The person above me, I don’t fully agree with the ‘salvation’ part or the ‘happy dream’ part. The panel where he was dreaming in chap 140, he wasn’t happy, he was in a pool of despair. He was merely fluctuating between guilt and solitude. He met his younger self, describing how he was alone almost 24/7. He then tried to keep his younger self company, and asked him what he thought of mom. But after the boy said “I wanna be like her when I become an adult” This is where guilt comes in, because he knew his fate changed and nothing worked out as planned. So Kaneki begins to cry, blaming himself for the person he became, saying that he’s NO different from mom.

I don’t think Kaneki was planning to lose himself either, nor was this his salvation. He admitted that he did all this because in the end, it was all about him (the same goes for mom): he sacrificed so much that he tucked himself away in a corner, for he was afraid of loneliness (which also explains why he told Hide nothing). I agree with the centipede part, and that reply with the Borderline Personality Disorder since that’s what I was thinking too. I mean, we all saw how he behaved during chap 139. It wasn’t a pretty sight. He said his salvation was literally to sleep and have happy dreams-this salvation is basically him ‘saving’ himself from evil, risk, harm, pain, loneliness and the wrong world via sleeping or death.

At least he’s resting now. But although I’m grieving for this character, I don’t want him to wake up. He suffered enough. Like I always say, I don’t care if he drops from SS to S. if this ‘sleep’ is the only way he could sustain mental health, then let him stay asleep.