Thread:Desantura91/@comment-27621207-20180731092327/@comment-34223508-20180904223525

I actually was looking for the CDs xD

Well, I think TG has a way bigger importance than it had to you, since I think that it wasn't wasted potential in the slightest and I enjoyed it from the bottom of my heart, but mainly actually because it just helped me sort out stuff, and it gave me inspiration to continue.

I'm just scared mainly... at the thought of it. Moving on - to be honest, all I want is to move on from certain things and I myself think it's utterly stupid that I can't just say "y'know, fuck it" like I do all the time and be done with it. I love this series, I actually don't really want something else. And I don't believe I'll ever find a series to my liking, maybe that's also another thing.

I have absolutely no idea what to do rn. I'm someone who gets lonely easily, and that's why I love fiction, like Harry Potter and Tokyo Ghoul.

But I'm completely turned off by anime nowadays, and there's no interesting series, and I don't like drama, I guess I just have nothing more to do.

Recently I've noticed, how bored I actually am. I'm bored of life, bored of it that nothing interesting as in magic and supernatural will happen, and since I generally dislike war and want to live in peace that won't help either, and I'm not superstitious in the slightest. But I don't want to die, I want to live. Cause as long as I'm alive something interesting might happen and I might find something that'll make me feel less lonely and less bored.

This is also why I really enjoyed speaking with you all, why I enjoyed being with you all, and another reason why TG means so much to me. I wasn't bored, it was fun, and I wasn't lonely.

And nowadays, I'm just scared of all sorts of things. I'm insecure about everything, overthink everything, have writers block, and can't sleep or eat. When I try to sleep, I feel agitated and as if some energy was put in me, when I eat, I lose my apetite after a bit. Probably the reason why I believe that the whole reason altogether might be something wrong with my body, like I'm sick. I've been spending a lot of time outside, but recently I just shut myself in, reading and watching Harry Potter, listening to drei ??? and being on wikia.

I'm also scared that I've been doing less drawing. I love drawing, I'm an artist, but recently I haven't done it so much. It scares me a bit.

I also wish I'd atleast have a living being to cuddle, but we have birds, we can't get a cat, and I also dislike dogs, and our birds aren't exacle cuddly.

I can't even go to the doctors to look at what may be up, because that'd mean I have to ask mum. Mum will laugh. I guess my main issues are just not being able to cope with TG:re ending, being lonely, the boredom coming from it, and multiple over othinking complications and 'what if'-scenarios I imagine and recreate subconsciously in my head and then become scared of them. I just want a cat rn... or something to cuddle that lives.