Talk:Ken Kaneki/@comment-10733658-20151215083044

So now that I'm back in town, I promised I would share my thoughts about the latest chapter and what happened with Kaneki.

Honestly, I am so incredibly worried for him right now. He seems to be repeating his past mistakes, but doubling-down on them to a very frightening degree. He has actively pushed away the people that have supported him, but gone about it differently than he did in the past. Before, he merely pulled away and avoided the people he wanted to protect. This time, we see him actively hurting them to create a distance.

He basically inflicted as much pain as possible on Tsukiyama, Urie, Saiko, and Mutsuki so that they wouldn't associate with him in the future. He has wrapped himself up in this cold and heartless mask, basically isolating himself from the very people that he needs. I have to worry whether he's going to do something to similarly hurt the :Re crew and all his friends at the CCG, so that they will keep their distance from him.

I also think his choice to stay with the CCG ties into his "wish". He wants to die in a cool way, that will make everyone love him. The CCG has been the place where he has received the most praise, positive reinforcement, and rewards in his entire life. He receives promotions, medals, awards, and a reputation through his efforts....something he has never had in his entire life. And he knows that through some great deed or service, he will be further recognized. If he dies doing something incredible, he will be praised and his actions memorialized.

I think he's gone back to the self-destructive path he was on before, but this time he seems to be setting things up so that no one else will be there with him when the time comes. And that scares me so much, because it shows that he didn't learn from the past and is repeating his previous mistakes. With any luck, Amon and/or Touka will be able to smack some sense into him.