Thread:Valyriefaery/@comment-3173617-20160614064009

I made a new Manga list what I want to read next like I normally do,but I want to try something. I has been thinking about reading couple gender-bender ones like boys becoming girls and cross dressing.

I don't want to be gay or anything,because I do want to experiment on what it will how a boy feels to get trap inside a woman body as long that they have boyfriends (I think it would be hilarious,because I am a girl). I don't mind the dresscrossing as it's temporary (if boys have to refill someone's place for them or girls disguising themselves as boys to blend in).

When I googled couple gender-bender ones, most of them that I looked up for what guys' becoming girls. But I found some of them have nudity and yuri and I was getting upset stomach when I look up stuff like that. I don't known what's wrong with my me,but I think the yaoi and yuri are completely sick to me. I don't care about the nudity,but I only care if the Manga have a really good story plot.

Mostly of the stuff that I got are mostly Shojos and Josei (I also got turned on by some of them). I haven't been marry,but I have a crush on this boy when I was out to doing activities.

What's really make it is harder for me? My dad even makes fun of the guy that I have a crush on,but my dad haven't known the guy and haven't met him. My dream about starting a family (get marry and have children) might be crush. 😢 My brother even made things way worse with his sick lesbian jokes by calling me a lesbian and that I should make out with one. It made me sick when he keeps on joking about stuff like that and he even joked about it when our mom was alive,but it does leave to question my sanity and sexuality.

I am really worry that I am losing my straight sexuality and being gay. 😢 Someone need to tell me what is going on with me. Am I truly straight? I bisexual? Am I going to become a complete lesbian? This does worry me a lot.,because I want to get marry and have children. I want people give a Straight answer. 